Ah, my fellow BJJ enthusiast, I understand entirely where you're coming from. That old saying goes, "I don't get high on life, I get high on rolling."
There's just something about the feeling of your body moving in sync with your opponent, the adrenaline rush as you execute a technique flawlessly, and the sense of accomplishment when you finally get that submission.
It's like a drug, but without the negative side effects (unless you count the occasional soreness or minor injuries). Who needs to go to a therapist when you can just roll on the mats and release all that pent-up stress and frustration?
And let's not forget about the social aspect of BJJ. It's a community of like-minded individuals with a passion for the sport. The friendships and bonds you form on the mats are priceless.
So, my friend, I completely understand why you don't feel happy until you roll in BJJ. It's a natural high that can't be replicated anywhere else. Just listen to your body and take rest days when needed, so you can keep rolling for years to come.